Addiction vs CONTROL…

Lots of guys get addicted to porn – which you really shouldn’t be watching.

Fetish is one thing but even then – if you “need” fetish porn to get off, there is something WRONG there.

More importantly, most men jack off to it. Not ruined orgasms. That’s the real issue. If you can ruin it to porn regularly, nothing like it. Like I’ve said, it’s an actual male orgasm that should and must be avoided. Not ruined or nipplegasms or sissygasms! Though if it’s a Nipplegasm take the hands away at the last second to ensure a full “80%” male orgasm does not happen.

By the way,

Cold hands on nipples feels SO good.

Warm too but there’s a good reason for the “hot and cold technique” mentioned in Sin City Diaries the lovely girls used SO effectively!
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EXTREMELY horny plus balls EMPTY, fully – prostrate DRAINED fully – is the ROYAL ticket as a male.

Done solo or otherwise.

Men should never have a real orgasm unless it’s for procreation. Trust me!

If your balls are full with no orgasm, most men simply don’t have the control to stop thinking about orgasms. Even if you did, it’ll come out as “night dreams” eventually. And you will not have the control not to make it a full orgasm.

The old timers knew this, yet didn’t know the art of ruined orgasms or maybe they did – we just didn’t have the internet then to popularize it. Certainly not our site haha.

Balls empty, no real orgasm – only RUINED is the TICKET. It keeps you hornier than ever. You’ll never get every last bit out. Even if you do, it doesn’t matter. More will be produced.

Men don’t even deserve real man orgasm. I say that in a very good manner!

Over the last few days I’ve mentioned how Master Amirs soles drove me INSANE like no other.

DROVE me to make decisions on releasing semen GALORE that I hadn’t done for YEARS!

And I did. Good thing happened. But slowly, as you have read about, the releases tapered off despite me consciously wanting them not to.

Over the past two days I’ve been having this niggling thought in my mind about – should I go back to the old routine of RETENTION?

Last evening I did.

And the bevy of ladies I instantly manifested – my.

This morning I woke up.

Was going to ruin orgasm to Master as always.

But despite fingering myself, “something” was off. I couldn’t quite place it! No pun.

I made a decision I had to with no release as opposed to the last three days.

Didn’t get entirely the desired result.

Which rarely happens with me. Hehe.

I analysed this deeply. After a smoke, turned on Sirs soles again.

But for some reason when it came time for cum release, “something was off”.

I think lesson here?

Too much of a good thing. Hehe.

Mentally thinking of him is fine.

Her soles.

Whatever.

But there can be too much of a good thing in terms of cleaning the balls out for men!

I think fingering should be done regardless – even if it’s for a few minutes – as it has so many manifold health benefits I’ve mentioned over the last few emails. Read every link mentioned in the last linked word.

But maybe this was the Universe telling me that it’s time to revert to old routines.

And so I will.

I thought I’d toss out my semen container since I don’t need it.

Opening it, the same lovely smell.

But oddly enough, no pun, a little semen remains – dang. I thought I drank it all yesterday. Apparently not.

It rolled around the side of the black container, almost winking at me, still gleaming X.

I didn’t drink it again. Or feel the urge to add more!

But I did not toss it away either. It’s a reminder. Much like Priyanka’s chappals … So lovely!

It’s funny, I asked this girl I “simp” to so often. “Madam, do you feel I’m gay?”.

So many have. Hehe

Her response – “I’m so confused”.

Whether that’s by the question – given I’m so heavily “into her” or if she feels I’m gay but not. Only she knows. Of course despite me asking her I doubt I’ll get an answer. That cardinal rule – women never need to answer anything – men do, boy!!!

There’s a reason girls mockingly tell me

“Pooja kar lo Bhagwati ki chappalo ki”!

Or “uske chappalo ke”.

Chappal – “slippers”.

And of course they’re holy too, his or hers. hehe.

“Worship her slippers too!”.

My, but … Again.

THIS is the POINT.

Control.

Realising when it’s enough. Not necessarily moving on, but controlling YOURSELF and remembering that control is what brought this male God into my life in the first place.

Lots of guys would force it. Jerk anyway.

And that’s not good!

Porn addiction is a huge problem in society today my friend.

Anything, food included even can become an addiction if you LET it.

Fetish especially. As a guy told me recently “it’s so easy to control these weak minded people”.

Indeed, folks. People have lost their entire life savings without intending to that way! Haha. Read this. And part two. And research Gabriella on the site. You’ll see. Hehe.

Anyway ..

Control is key.

One foot, no pun intended – in the real world always. That’s why my stuff is all REAL life mixed in with a dab of fantasy, not the other way around as most do. It’s also why you guys love us so!

Also why I’m called the Emperor and Master. Hehe. Despite never thinking I’d be called the former!

Anyway…

Aa ling.

Amanda so cutely called her “AA ling” hehe. .

Her first comment to me was “I find you very interesting!”. Hehe. So many people say that to me. Everyone in fact.

The lovely Lucy saying I was better than the men I introduced to her despite my RANK submission to them. Hehe.

And as the lovely Paula sent me the Spanish translation of the book this morning, memories. . .

. . . That first kiss.

. . . The photo stuck on to my phone for years which my to be wife later removed saying “you don’t need this anymore, do you?”. Hehe. The way I mentioned all those experiences upfront to her on the first day we chatted.

“Why you telling me all this”.

Hey. I’m honest!

And that’s key.

So those are the messages for now.

Pick up “Owned by Madam Aa Ling”. You’ll love the true tale!

And that’s that X.

Best,

Mike Watson

Edit – post workout, three hours later, looking at those lovely milky white feminine yet so manly THIGHS being rubbed ..

“Tel laga!!”

“Oil, boy!”

Calling an older man boy as actually happened in apartheid South Africa unfortunately. Oh my! Realism again!

Oil is always better than lotion!

See why here.

My balls quiver again.

Maybe I just need a vibrating butt plug up my ass all day. I’ll keep leaking in pant!

Constantly wet like a girl X.

No nipple touch required even. .

Still haven’t felt the urge to “release”.

A very interesting thread that many love.

Will continue to be updated. Oh he’s so nice, what a God!

Edit #2-  Couldn’t help it!

THIS time –

Right after writing that –

My. Fresh, and you can see the leftovers being referred to above. Hehe.

HAD to finger my ass furiously.

Went even deeper, hitting the END of the prostrate where the cum would starting to form. That did it.

Furious ass fucking.

And then nipples.

And then ruined – how?

Got hard, flicked nipples and just left everything right at the moment…

My!!

Another sign?

Most interesting!

Energy, SO much of it now! X

Edit #2- Short walk, one more workout later.

Furious jerk again – my!

So much for returning to the old routine. Master, I’m so sorry!

Including not watching your massage video last night while eating! As I’ve been doing as of late, oh my, he’s so nice, the way he’s RELAXING like the royal KINg he is, just writing this, my dick twitches yet again!

Even if I did watch another video I should have kept switching back and forth like I did the last time.

Definitely my bad there.

This was a true ruined orgasm. It barely poured out – minimum pleasure.

So frustrated, so HAPPY! THIS is why I never want or have real orgasms. That hasn’t changed and won’t either.

Like I say in the book, don’t stop right AT the point he’s about to cum. That will be a part ruined orgasm. Some pleasure still.

Stop right at the point before that.

Other than visual, REMOVE ALL stimulation, nipples too.

It’s a fine art, one you simply must learn if you want to do it right. And get MAX pleasure. Benefit, I should say!

Can be hard if your horny.

LEARN as a male tho! If you’re doing it yourself that is, as a woman or partner doing it?

It’ll take practice. It’s relatively easy to tell when he’s about to cum and stop all.

Stop RIGHT before that xo.

Isn’t the male body wonderful? Hehe.

In the former case the initial blast will have some pleasure.

But latter?

You’ll feel a construction in your balls as the little cum starting to cum through the valve connecting the opening of the penis to balls empties – Forcefully!

You’ll learn to ENJOY that and stay hard!

Just the bit of semen produced in the past hour. How dare I keep it in my balls! That’s for him!

What REALLY did it?

Shivika Madam looking at me imperiously, knowingly.

“Malik per dabawe rahe hai!’

Master is getting his feet rubbed!

Emphasis on feet! And the RESPECTFUL manner in which she said really did it. You can tell by the deferent respectful term. Used for REAL men!

As if I should KNOW!

I should!

Or, the lovely Bhagwati saying it in a safe tutoring manner, tutoring the servant like the wise old lady she is!

Doesn’t matter. Vibe!!!

And, yin and yang. Dominant and not! Yet always in control.

Like I wrote about before, even he’s so polite to his dark skinned minions that aren’t really that. Calls them friends – extends his leg out cautiously, won’t even just put it on their laps but they sense it and do it and then he does it so comfortably, dominantly!

And right at that minute those lovely FAIR manly soles moved!

And …my!

I’m hard yet again. More energy!!

My, what a man he is. Too nice!

Strange as it may sound, just looking at his RELAXED face does it!

There’s a reason the girls in Sin City Diaries kept staring at me while pressing my feet. It made me a bit uncomfortable but now I understand, she was trying to gauge my reactions. Hehe. True service!

And you know, if they’re standing or above you whole massaging it’s good,but…

…sitting on the ground.

Or even squeezed at the edge of a sofa while you lie comfortably, edge of bed maybe.

Kneeling on the floor with you on your very comfortable bed, and them being OLDER.

THAT is IT!!

Anyway –

Wouldn’t say I was wrong this morning. Time and place for everything. Maybe the mistake was taking the business decision before the first release. Masters soles need to bless me FIRST. Lesson learnt there, perfect Master. I’m so truly sorry!

And I am truly paying the PENANCE for it now aren’t I? As Master smirks. HA!

Vibe!

And I drank the load up right NOW. Fresh cum tastes even better, better than even before!

Greedily lapped up the bits with the END of my red sexy tongue. I’ll try and video it next time X. Lovely burning sensation from the antiseptic in the semen!

Mut pi apna!

I can just heard him taunting me from his throne. Drink your cum, boy!

More soon.

Sissy-gasm takes a while if your prostrate is empty.

But ruined never will with cum in balls, no matter how little.

I can feel the base where cum is stored burning too as more cum makes its way there. Truly, you guys are PRIVILEGED to get the “as it happens” BLOW by BLOW!!

My.

Isn’t he just God?

Edit – an hour later again . I have lost track. That COLD feeling at the base of my balls. My!

Completely ruined. I had to actually use the first to even get hard!

The first two spurts were DRY.

Then a bit of cum was FORCED out.

Oh my!

As Bhagwati sagely tells me when I worship her.

“Seva kar beta. Sab milega”.

Serve with an open heart with NO ulterior motive, NOTHING in it for YOU, boy. Or son!

You’ll truly get all.

And I am – that HEART keeps pounding!

So much ENERGY!!!!

Eating an apple and orange, I wanted to suck his toes. Why?

Not fetish.

Just so the nutritious juice reaches his lovely big succulent deserving toes first and I get the remnants mixed in with toe jam. I too, deserve that!

Like in Serving an Indian Goddess, I’d rub cum on his soles too.

But no.

He’s not gay like me! Real man .. giggle. Hehe.

Edit again hours later in bed – sissygasm time! No video. Nothing. Darkness. And heart pounding sissygasms with no release.

When i did finally touch my nipples, my.

My heart rate shot up more.

I was DIZZY with heart thumping pleasure, bliss!

Literally.

Completely ruined.

First spurt – dry!

Second, some cum was forced out.

Maybe I’ve FINALLY paid penance. Hehe.